When I was crying originally about nick bringing up the whole “ending things after Christmas” thing, McCall asked me a great question. If things work out down the road, would I consider moving somewhere solely because of him? I honestly think I would. Assuming nothing crazy or big happens between then and now, I feel like I am confident enough in us that we would work it out if given the right time and place. I guess after this week I will hopefully know more, but from this side, I would like to think that it works out.



My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude.


I know I have a heart because I feel it breaking. — Wizard of Oz

If I am single, will I continue to go out to parties or would I try to do something different to make myself stand out. How do I not settle for who ever comes along? What do I need to do to decide if someone is worthy? I would like to get away from the frat boys, but athletes aren’t much better. I want to do something to find a guy that can mentally stimulate me.

We both knew getting into it that our situation wasn’t idea, but that didn’t stop our pursuit. Now that it is coming to an end, I have been given the opportunity to mentally prepare for the end. We both knew getting into this that our time was limited, but that didn’t change the fact that we continued to grow in love every day for an entire month. As Thanksgiving approaches, I have can look ahead and see some possibilities. I keep asking myself “What happens if it doesn’t work out. How do I tell my family and friends? What happens when I am single?” I haven’t been single for the longest time. What sort of person do I want to convey to people who don’t know me? I’m not very good at organizing my thoughts, so I plan on throwing them at this blog to see what shit sticks.